Feel a lift under my wings,
Of the light cool breeze

Feel the fragrance in the air,
Of the pink and yellow roses

Feel the warmth in my limbs
Of the bright golden sun

Feel the music in my ears
Of the flying, chirping birds

Feel the kindness of the words
Of the people around me

Feel the desire from within
To live my life once again.

He was mine to keep

I thought

Until one day she came along shattereing all my dreams

And I was shown the door……

I hurt, I bled

Looked for a shoulder to cry  upon

A pair of arms to hug me

A pair of lips that would murmur ----

“Have a heart, take care, Everything will be fine,

He is yours, he will be yours”.

But can he be mine?

When he is already committed…..

How can I wish him away from his family?

How can I use him for my emotional succour?

How can I write those emotional words…

That have come to mean so much to us….

How can I hurt another woman

A tender soul just like me?

He is not mine

Even if he says so

He belongs to her

And she to him

What am I doing here?

I need to leave

I need to move on

To bid goodbye

Now Now Now

Or else I will never be able to do it……..

I dream of you ………..

lying on the cool sands of our private beach

Stark naked …………….

as the moonlight casts its cool glow on your perfect body….

And I wonder,

how can anyone be so flawless?

I ache to touch you ………………

I ache to feel your touch………….

Here, there, everywhere……………….

A sigh escapes my lips, as I reach out to you

And my lips crave for your lips

To drink deeply from mine…….

The nectar of love……

The ambrosia of lust……..

You feel me then,

Your fingers through my lustrous hair

Awakens the inevitable

One by one

You take them off

The  journey of agony and ecstasy begins……………

The inevitable happened and he has moved on. I saw him last evening smiling and talking to another, very near our favourite haunt. The hurt was too much like a stab in the heart and the pain radiating all over.

Why do some people move on quickly while others like me continue in agony? I could easily be one of those  who get consumed with jealousy and follow him around. Is he calling her the same names he called me... I wonder. Have they...? I ache but in all this I do realise I could so go crazy with hurt and jealousy.

Woke up this morning resolved to shoo these thoughts away from my mind and blog about it and let it blow in the wind so that tonight I'm free of them. But can I really be free of my evil eye and thoughts, I wonder?

Never wanna leave you never wanna go,
Thatz jus' what ma heart'd said do you know,

Feeling good lying in your arms
Shoo my blues away with all your charm

Have you come back to stay for long
Or are you gonna go back when I feel strong?

You hurt me you rip me, you cause me pain
Go, go and go and never come again
Never wanna see you, see you ever again

Let me be jus' let me be
I dont wanna need you just let me free

You came like a breeze in my life….

One fine day…..

You befriended me and said….

I am here to stay……

We chatted, we talked…..

Of lost love and some more…..

We shared, you cared

You nurtured me like never before…

We dreamt of our togetherness

Of the oneness in the future………

Today, those moments ……..

Of shared happiness……..

Seems like a beautiful dream

I have been woken up….

Rudely……..

One fine day……….

You bid me goodbye…..

Just like that………

No reasons, no causes given…..

You, who came like a breeze in my life…..

Stirred up a storm…….

Leaving me behind…..

To survive alone……..

------ S

I trust and I hurt each time
Forever waiting for you kills me
all those long hours when you said
that you will come
and then failed to turn up
Something within me died bit by bit
in every moment

I burn inside the pain is so unbearable
why do you do this to me
is it fun, is it a joke
or you just love to torment me?

Tell me please, what should i do?
Can’t stop thinking about you
Cant move on without you too
I am at a total loss.


---------- S

Hi I'm new and have just ended a relationship and thot I'll blog to keep myself sane! It was great while it lasted but today I'm alone he moved on becasue I have decided to pursue a life abroad - it was my dad's dream so I will soon be making plans to leave.

Anyway, thats the story and look forward to help from all of you every step of the way.

Love, Sajini